A sketch I did last night, while trying to avoid doing my Design class project. Done with 2B and 4B pencils. 

life goes on

Hello! I'm finally back. Took a while, but my first week of school was pretty busy. If you're a student, you know that already. Waiting in line for an hour for textbooks is horrendous. All is well with student loans now, I should be getting the documents soon. I finished writing my first english assignment; I'm very nervous about how my professor will receive it. I will post the writing later. And I'll let everyone know what my first mark is!
I hate the hills here. My butt hates them, my quads hate them, my knees hate them. I should be in great shape when I get home next summer! There are no treadmills in the fitness centre...it's a weight room. So I won't be able to run during the winter. I'll switch to kickboxing, I guess. I miss my treadmill...
I have a cute apartment, but I hate all the endless hours of being alone. You'd think that I'd like that, considering that I'm usually overwhelmed by noise and stress and such. But I miss my babygirl, my man, and my own bed. And my treadmill...

These are a few trading cards I made on Thursday. They seem appropriate for the way I was feeling Friday! 

horrible day

I hate Student Loans. They are totally screwing me over...and there's nothing I can do. I need to pay my tuition by September 3rd, and I don't even know if I'm getting any funds. I have no idea if I can pay for school. I don't even know if I can leave for Medicine Hat on Monday. What's going to happen if I get there, then I receive notice from Student Loans that I won't get any funds? Then I end up coming back home, and have to tell all my friends and co-workers that I didn't make it. I don't know if my self-esteem can handle another blow like that. After all my dreams, and plans, and everyone being so supportive of me, and I would have to say, "guess what, I failed once again. Thanks for the nice party, and all the compliments, but gee, I am such a f@*^ing mess that I can't handle this, and I got booted out of school. So here I am, and my life sucks. But thanks for caring."
I can't believe this is happening to me. I don't even have faith right now to believe that God can do this for me. Life has always been so difficult for me, and I work so hard, and I'm still a loser. Why me? So I get to be ADHD, Learning Disabled, and hopeless all at the same time! I don't even know how to pray anymore. What do I pray for?